—He’s got it.
…is it bad?
—Just about as bad as it gets.
The Doctor stood with Mrs. Patterson outside of a glass retaining wall in the observation room. Her husband—middle aged and suited, potbellied and balding, tired and remarkably motionless—sat at a kitchen table within. Pads and wires attached to him monitored his galvanic skin response, but he seemed not to notice and just stared at the wall with a blank expression. The Doctor adjusted his mirrored glasses in a clinical manner. He cleared his throat officially. It all made Mrs. Patterson very nervous, and she twisted the wool hat in her hands. It had been a hard winter in Wisconsin.
Oh jeez… He’s not gonna die, is he? I mean, he’ll make it, right?
—That’s up to him. Whether or not he’s a fighter.
He’ll be alright, I know he will. I mean, he’s always. . .
—Before you make any karma-inducing statements, Mrs. Patterson, we should run a few simple tests.
Well, alright then. Whatever you think is best.
—First, we will administer a test of awareness. This test will determine whether or not he is paying attention to his surroundings.
The Doctor pushed a button, and a hot plate of food rose from an opening in the kitchen table. Savory steak with eggs and gravy, toast, coffee, and a glass of orange juice. It looked delicious.
—I want you to tell him you made it just for him, a new recipe.
Mrs. Patterson looked up at The Doctor. He motioned to the microphone protruding from the control board. She approached it hesitantly.
“Good morning, honey! I made this just for you, a brand new recipe to get your day started.” She looked back at The Doctor for approval, but he was already writing on his clipboard.
Mr. Patterson looked around for the source of the voice, then noticed the plate of food in front of him and began to eat. The Doctor watched the monitor make its jagged blips and bleeps, and scribbled on his clipboard accordingly. Before Mr. Patterson had finished eating, The Doctor pressed a second button and the food was lowered from the table. A second dish took its place. It looked like dog food. Mr. Patterson hardly noticed, and continued eating. After the first bite he made a face of disgust and confusion, but then he just shook his head and finished the plate. Then he said, “It was fantastic, honey. Thank you,” and he picked up the newspaper beside the plate and began to read. He burped and grimaced at the aftertaste, shook the paper, and kept reading. The Doctor looked at his clipboard in concern.
—I’m afraid we’re going to have to resort to more drastic measures.
The Doctor walked out the door of the observation room and appeared in the testing room to the left of the kitchen. He placed his hands into two gloves that protruded into the kitchen and used them to pick up an extendable meter stick leaning against the wall. He drew it out, and with utmost precision he pointed it at Mr. Patterson and prodded him, lightly.
Mr. Patterson shifted in his seat.
The Doctor waited, then prodded him again.
Mr. Patterson moved his hand down to swat the stick away, and finding nothing there, he rubbed his side and returned to his meal.
The Doctor poked him hard enough to make him jump.
Mr. Patterson said, “whoever’s doing that, will you please knock it off?”
The Doctor prodded him incessantly.
Mr. Patterson tried to get up and move to the other side of the table, but when the wires restricted him, he sat back down and accepted the prodding.
When The Doctor returned to the observation room, Mrs. Patterson was sobbing quietly. It’s bad isn’t it? she said, It’s really bad.
—There is still some hope yet, Mrs. Patterson. Maybe he is just a very calm and enduring person. Next we test his empathy.
The Doctor pressed a third button on the control panel, and a television dropped down from the corner of the ceiling. CNN blared from the screen. 600 Sudanese children were found in unmarked graves today, victims of what is believed to be a sex trafficking ring. . . As the news report continued with pictures accompanying, the monitor showed only the slightest reaction from Mr. Patterson. Mrs. Patterson let out a cry of anguish. The Doctor shook his head at his clipboard.
—There is one more test. The American rule. One must always value the individual above all things. I want you to read this to him, Mrs. Patterson. He handed her a script, which she scanned quickly, and looked up at him in horror. No, she said, I couldn’t. I just…
—Read it, Mrs. Patterson.
She read it. It said that she had been sleeping with his boss for 3 years. It said that he was worthless, disappointing, and would never amount to anything in his miserable life. It said he had a small penis. For a while there was silence as Mr. Patterson digested the news. Then, he said, “Well, then I guess we should get a divorce.”
The Doctor turned to Mrs. Patterson to give her the diagnosis. He checked items off his clipboard as he spoke.
—Lack of conviction due to feelings of powerlessness. This is typical of a man who was once driven by deeper desires. Over time he has realized the miniscule impact he has as an individual, and the ever-growing tide of control of those individuals that are against him.
—Robotic detachment. After years of anguish, failure, and disappointment, he has realized it’s easier to walk an emotional flat line. He takes life as it comes, and does his best not to care about anything, especially if it involves himself.
—Feelings of inadequacy, stage 4. He’s been downtrodden, pushed around again and again by his superiors, and… well, he’s given up, Mrs. Patterson. I don’t know what to tell you. He simply does not care anymore. I’m sorry, Mrs. Patterson, but there’s nothing we can do.
Mrs. Patterson sobbed. Nothing? she asked, absolutely nothing?
The Doctor took off his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose.
—Well, there is one thing, but it’s up to you, Mrs. Patterson. Let him believe he has control. If a man can’t even have control of his own home, then what does he have? You know better, Mrs. Patterson. You don’t need the reassurance. But he might. Maybe you can pull him out of this. Remind him why he loves you, why you love each other, and maybe you can bring him back to life. Maybe you won’t even have to convince him, maybe it’s still true. Do you think you can do that?
Mrs. Patterson looked terrified. I don’t know, doctor, she said. I don’t know if I can do it. I don’t know if I do love him anymore… the way he is now.
The Doctor sighed and walked to the lever at the far left of the control board.
—Then he’s dead.
He pulled the lever and electricity poured into Mr. Patterson. His muscles went taut and he trembled from the force of the voltage coursing through his body. Then he went limp and the room faded into darkness.
It was the middle of the night and Jon shot up in bed. Natalia was there beside him, her small hands smoothing the rumples on his undershirt and checking the temperature of his forehead.
“Are you alright?”
“Fine,” he said, looking out the dark window. “Just a dream. A really weird dream.”
She pulled him back down beside her and kissed his neck.
“Just a dream,” she repeated sleepily. “Go back to sleep.”
Jon rolled onto his side to ask her something, but Natalia’s eyes were already closed. He pushed the hair back from her face and took a deep breath.
“I love you,” he said. But he did not go back to sleep.